Monday, March 5, 2012

Content

I went a little MIA over the last few weeks as things got a little rough in my brain. My thoughts were all over the place and I couldn't even make sense of them in my own head let alone to anyone else.

But I'm in an okay place now.

About 2 months ago I started questioning everything and I do mean everything. Did I do the right thing? Did I just make the biggest mistake of my life? Who am I? Where do I want to be? What kind of life do I want? What do I want my future to look like? Who the eff am I?!

It was frustrating to say the least.

But somehow going through all that has led me to this okay place I'm in now. This place of contentment. I'm still confused about a lot of things but I'm in a place where I am okay with that confusion. I have accepted that things are going to be like that sometimes.

I am working my butt off at my job and I am making stuff for etsy in the little bits of spare time I can eek out. I am tutoring a 10 year old and spending time with my sister. I am dating (I know...) which is weird and new and different and ridiculously nerve-wracking.

But I'm okay with that.

I am content to take it one day at a time and not be in a rush to have all the answers and make any big decisions right now.
I am content to work hard and continue to do well at it.
I am content to date (well, kind of... I find dating to be so stressful) and have fun.
I am content to spend as much time with my sister and with my best friend as possible because they are my rocks.
I am content to vent and tell every single thought in my brain to my best blog friend ever who will never judge me and will always be the long lost soul sister I never had.
I am content to return to blogging and pour my thoughts out to all your wonderful friends.

I am content.

4 comments:

Courtney said...

That's completely understandable with everything you're going through. I'm glad you in a more content state of mind and I hope it continues :)

Kristin said...

keep your head up!

Sonya said...

I am glad that you are finding your footing! I wish you all the best.

Crazy Shenanigans-JMO said...

It sounds like you're doing really well!